As it happened, we were talking, this friend of mine and me. We were born in the same year and month. We talked about jobs and marriage and life and stuff. Then I blurted out, "Chill. We're still 23!"
And there she shot back, "Who are you kidding? We're 24 dear."
And I laughed it off. "You're dreaming. Use your calculator. You're brain is lagging."
The truth is... MY BRAIN IS LAGGING. Maybe because of this one-year-straight pandemic, I lost track of time. But she was right. I am 24. Dammit! I mean, it's something to be grateful for, I'm well aware of that... but... seriously! Why... I've heard they say TIME FLIES but I guess I never really knew what it means... Until now, when my friend's words jerked me off, back to the reality. Somehow it feels really disturbing. I guess it's because I've always thought that I was 23, and now someone just presented me the undeniable fact that I'm 24, and I feel like life has robbed a whole year from me without me noticing it. Since when did I forget to count my years on earth? 3 months ago? Long before? What about next year? Will I keep forgetting it? Because now that I think of it, I guess I know why I forgot that. I never meant to forget, but my brain chose to.
Okaaaay let's not dwell on it, shall we?
Now that we've figured out we're 24, we've got to do something ('We' refers to me and myself, fyi). Not that we've been doing nothing this whole time. We've been doing a lot of things; working, self-upgrading, a lot of learning and stuff (which is also part of self-upgrading), and it's all good. But now we have to do something that really matters. Not that everything we've done doesn't matter (Dammit I can't keep negating my own words!). The point is, I've been doing everything as a 23-yr-old-me. Now that I realized I'm fricking 24, it's all have to be changed! For Real! Let's start with, less playing around and more seriously plan ahead. Not just plan it, but act on it.
I don't know since when I started to refer to myself in first plural personal pronoun, but let's get back to 'I', because I don't want you to think that I'm talking to my imaginary friend or something.
It feels better now that I already spit it out. Now I just need to close this page and back to the real life. Wish me luck! (I know life is NOT a wish granting factory, but c'mon! It's just what they say... WISH ME LUCK. They keep saying that before doing some things, and other will reply GOOD LUCK. I mean, whether we believe or not in luck, the expressions stick with us, so for once, just let me use that okay?!
WISH ME LUCK!
Chiao
